Thursday, November 18, 2010


Why do people trend to just complicate their life's? It appears that nobody likes it easy. And I am not saying "the easy way" or so. I say, look around and become aware that your life is good! See how fortunate you are and as long you have health you can consider yourself a very lucky person. 

I can almost hear people say: "Shut up! You know nothing about me! How can u say my life is good?! Idiot!!!" Maybe not as harsh, but surely pretty close to that.

But I can say. I know more about you than you realize. I know for instance that you had proper education, you can read! I know that you have access to modern communication and to a computer. You probably live in an apartment or a house in some city and you have a TV set, a refrigerator, a car, a phone, ... a job. You have ... and because of that you are part of an elite group. You are part of the 2% of Earth's inhabitants that actually have access to all these things I just mentioned. Yes, only 2% of us have all this. And the funny part is, I start believing that these 2% are the ones that most complain.

Why can't we just sit back and enjoy what we have, maybe even share a little with someone not as fortunate as we are. Wouldn't it be good once in a while to look in the mirror and to be proud of ourselves? To say yes instead of no, to say I have time and I am just fine and not sorry, I am in a hurry

You know what I found out that gives me a humangus pleasure? To listen! Yes, listen to your friends and listen to your family. Listen what a stranger has to say with no prejudice and no opinion. We don't have to have an opinion all the time. We can just listen once in a while, and learn from others. 

And some times we can take life just a little easier, go against all trends an be happy with us and our achievements. Slow down a bit so that we can actually see again what surrounds us. We can stop and take a look at the mirror and see us again. And if you realize that your life isn't that bad at all, you can become a happier person. Than you can share this happiness with others and we can all become happier. 

Or maybe I should just shut up and leave all alone in that crazy race in pursuit of happiness, a happiness we all already have but just can't see. 

Don't know.  What I know? Tomorrow I will pick up my babies again and I will sit with them and play with their Barbies and read stories and just be a dad, no producer, no photographer, no filmmaker, no ... just a dad. And I will be happy doing so.

By the way, my youngest one just lost a tooth. She pulled it herself and I was sitting next to her and I was a very proud dad and I was very happy that I did not miss this special moment. A moment that never comes back and if I had been busy and not taken the time to be with my children, I'd have missed it. Forever ....

Sunday, November 7, 2010

The Meaning of Life

Today I got touched by a friends more or less desperate pursuit for reasons for her misery. A cry-out to the world seeking for answers.

There are none.

Isn't it so? Whenever we have doubts, when we are sad, lost, alone ... we seek for the reasons and the answers everywhere but the place where we could actually find them. Within ourselves.

I truly believe, and that I have in common with a very holy person - the Dalai Lama, "The reason for everything and the answers to all questions are in us!" Deep inside we know, just need to find a way to get there.

No, I am no buddhist, I am a Christian Protestant from the Church of Martin Luther, although he hasn't seen me for a while in his home. But that is not the issue. The thing is, that it is time that we realize that the time has come to take responsibility for ourselves. Stop blaming the world for your life, for what you have or mainly for what you don't have. And most of all, be happy!

We have so many reasons to be happy but no, we spent hours blaming our swimsuit that we cannot swim, or the boss for our bad paycheck or politicians for everything else that is wrong. No, stop doing that and start seeing the beauty that surrounds us - everywhere!

But you will only see it when you realize, that if you cannot swim, than because you didn't try hard enough and when you don't make as much money as your neighbor, maybe it is because you didn't study that extra lesson or you don't work that extra hour or you, you, you. It is not them, it is you.

I don't say that to make you feel even more misery or think that you are a looser, not at all. I say that because when you realize, than you have the chance to change it and to make your life be just the way you want it to be! It's never to late to become whatever you want to be. You just have to know the rules and to do whatever is necessary to get there, and when you do, you will!

There is one thing though that makes your dream-come-true even faster:


Be kind to you and be kind to others. Actually be kind to everything and anything and everyone. And the more kindness you give, the more you will receive and the more open your eyes will become, to see ...

You know that chapter in the Bible where they say that Jesus made that blind man see and the crippled one walk? Well, I believe that this is what they were talking about. Take responsibility, stop blaming others, take your life in your own hands and go for it. Be happy! Start you day with a friendly good morning life and go from there. Don't let circumstances take your attention away from your goal and be K I N D !!!

And soon, very soon you'll get back. More than you ever dreamed of.

Start now ... 

Scare away all bad things in your life and be happy!

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I don't get it

Sometimes I think, life's chosen me to fool around with, at least for the moment. My turn to be the clown, to look into the mirror and to laugh about myself, couse this is the only way I see, that I will handle all that is happening.

The newest joke: my ex invited my mom to have some beers tonight! And she went.

Wouldn't be such a big deal if there wasn't the fact, that they both - lets say, doesn't "love" each other enough to hang around with. Actually they bitch about one another - behind their backs, ... sure. 

I am willing to believe that people change, and sometimes for better. And I really want to believe that this approach might be some kind of "lets try to be friends now and forget about the past". After all, there are the children and even separate, somehow we will stay together by that bond, forever. But honestly, my heart wants to believe that this is all for good, just the head says "open your eyes, there is heavy artillery coming!"

Despicable me to have such un-pure thoughts, but hey! I know them and I've never seen them getting along for real as long as I was married. And since I am a very gifted person, I have a very flowered fantasy, well this fantasy doesn't see any good coming towards me. Worst, I am afraid to imagine these two women bonding because if this happens, I will be screwed!

Sure, I might be a little paranoid, but after the one my mom played to me last week, I am sure you will give me right. After almost 6 months staying at my place, she finally (and don't get this wrong, I love my mother, the most when she is at her place) decided to go back to her home and just before I went to buy her ticket she said no, she changed her mind and she wanted to stay throughout the european winter and only go back to Germany in spring. 
And now this...

But you know what, I trust nature! And in nature ex-wifes and mothers don't come along. Specially not the ones that never did. After all, God can't be that mad at me, I am his son! And, ... I believe in miracles! And miracles are always for good. So, if that miracle happens and my mother and my ex-wife become friends, than I am the luckiest person in the world and have nothing to fear. Nothing at all!

Before I go, I'll let you guys have a glimpse on the lovely couple. A picture from a time where they almost liked each other. Look, aren't they cute?

Love you, bye!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


When do you know that this is the one? Oh … , sure, I mean … the right person, the chosen one, the soul mate (at least for this moment), name it the way it suits you best.

Every day we meet people. We are surrounded by them … people, strangers. Among them, a special one. Someone you’ve never seen before. Somehow you make acquaintance and before you know, it hits you.

My parents, and I believe every one else’s parents to, told me as a kid not to talk to strangers. I am glad I didn’t listen otherwise I’d probably be the loneliest person in the world. For Christ’s sake, everyone is a stranger unless we talk and get to know them. Not to believe everything a stranger says and not to go with someone we don’t know, ok. But never to talk to someone … come on.

If I hadn’t spoken to that woman, I didn’t knew, I wouldn’t had married her, didn’t have my 2 babies, hmmm, wouldn’t be divorced now … (should I have listened to my parents???) … anyway, this is not what I want to talk about. The thing is, when do we know that we actually met the special person among all these strangers?

I never knew. But thinking on how it was I remember one thing that always happened to me, I had a vision.

I basically fall in love every single day. Most of the times, several times a day. I see beautiful people and I fall in love. I have a great conversation, I fall in love. I see nature doing it’s wonders, I fall in love. Even when I get a good meal, … yeah, you know! But sometimes it is different.

The first time I saw my wife (I know, ex-wife now!!), I was a jury member in a beauty contest and she worked with the producer of the event. I saw her stepping out a door about 20 meters away, cross the room crowded with people, some papers in her hand and disappearing on the other side. It took less than a minute but in my perception it took forever. And while I was watching her I had a vision. A vision of us in some backyard, 2 kids, a dog and harmony. And I felt good.

This night I didn’t stay for my jury duties. I had to leave early and I left a message for another jury member and I left this message with her. While I was leaving I saw her standing at a corner and I asked her to give my message to that person, and I left. Nothing happened.

A few days later I went to a shooting, a commercial for a hair stylist. There she was again. I did not recognize her as the one from the beauty contest but for some reason I couldn’t stop looking at her. We talked, talked, exchanged phones, talked some more, had dinner, … the rest you know.

We never got the dog!

And I wonder, does this happen just to me? How does it happen with others? Will it happen again?

I know it is special, I know it happens every day everywhere. Strangers become friends, friends become couples, couples become family. The wonders of life. And next time someone tells you not to talk to strangers, do not listen! Talk to as many strangers possible, get to know them, become friends. And love. Who knows we make this world a better place when we get to know all these strangers we live side by side with every day! But if you meet someone and for no reason you have a vision, be aware, this might be the one special one waiting for you. Don’t be afraid. Go for it! It doesn’t matter for how long it lasts, just don’t miss that special chance to find love, to find happiness.

Hey! Let me get to know you better! Why don’t you tell me how you found your special love? Write it to me, down in the comments. Share with me. Feel free to share with me your stories. I’d love to read them.

Take care …

november 2005